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I've got to admit... ive been through a lot of crap with my dad but last night i actually moved out.. im not too sure if it was permenently yet or not though..... guess i should tell you the story.

Kay well we had dinner and dad was already having a pissy day so i should have taken the hint but i was being too dumb... so anyways after dinner i put half of the table stuff away and lef \t the other half for my sister and she left the table without picking anything up so when my dad came upstairs he spazzed. ON ME! he took away my computer, my books, the TV, writing was prohibited and i was supposed to sit there and do NOTHING for a week... i dont think so. so i just said i was going to moms for the rest of the week. so he spazzed even more.. now by this point i was scared. So i did call my mom and she came and me, my sister and Kira left. We went to my moms.
Me and my mom talked and we agreed that i would try to make it up to my dad.... but im not so sure its going to work out even if i do. and i found out im the only one keeping my dad from comitting suicide and i dont want him DEAD! so i really dont know what to do.
and i REALLY miss my friends. Kelsey, Schwa, emma..... :( the way each of them would know exactly what to say to make me feel better when something like this happenes. I would just go to school and tell them all about it and everything would be okay. worst thing is that all their phone numbers are on my laptop so i cant even call them. I read my yearbook 5 times yestuday. especially schwa's. it made me feel better but it just accented the fact that i missed them. so ireally want to see them but i dont know when ill be able to. Life sucks. atleast ill get a hug from, justin soon ... i hope.
GothGirl